-we’ll always miss you Julie-

i really love this song by the late Julie Vega, an actress from the Philippines.  she died young, 16 or 17 i think, not sure………she was the cinema’s child darling…..a promising actress and singer…..not to mention a pretty face…..i miss her…..i was only 4 or 5 at that time but i have already liked her through her movies….and will continue liking her still……

 

-somewhere in my past-

by: Julie Vega

 

I met you just tonight
But I keep won”drin why
It seems I’ve always known you all my life

You held me only once
But I keep won”drin why
It seems youve held me forever

Can it be true?
Could I be wrong ?
That somewhere in my past
I fell in love with you

Can it be true?
Could I be wrong?
That’s somewhere in my past
There was also me and you

You’ve kissed me only once
But I keep wondrin why
It seems you’ve kissed my lips so many times

I met you just tonight
But I keep wondrin why
It seems I’ve known you forever

Can it be true?
Could I be wrong ?
That somewhere in my past
I fell in love with you

Can it be true?
Could I be wrong?
That’s somewhere in my past
There was also me and you

Somewhere, Forever
Somewhere, Somewhere.

….6 months and counting….

…..been a few months now and am still one of them -the unemployed lot-, maybe you’ll ask me bunch of questions on why, how, or what am i doing with my life doing nothing? …..i don’t know either……my former colleagues may have thought i resigned from my previous job because i had to and was forced to, but i would only be kidding myself…….deep inside it was really boredom leading to depression that was killing me and the circumstance surrounding the resignation only made it easier for me to leave my job.  well it’s much acceptable to say to people that i had to resign because of such and such and not because of boredom/depression…..i might get a lot of weird looks if i say that i was slowly becoming depressed with the job and just had to get out of it before i lose whatever will i still have…..and to think that i used to take depression as nothing but a mere word used by individuals to cover-up their weaknesses and their lousy lives…..but it does get to you….in any form……one way or another…………

….almost….South Korea….almost

….i no longer have any updates of my former would-be scholar classmates bound for south korea….are you guys there now?…….coz am still stuck here  

….the offered work-scholarship program for south korea was okay but i had to back-out at the last minute because i was still having second thoughts about really working and studying there for three years……well the work part is not really difficult, we just have to teach english to koreans ranging from elementary kids to college students, pretty easy since we do speak english….but it was the study part that really made me hesitant coz we would be studying computer programming, which is really out-of-context on my part since i am a healthcare professional…..before i applied for it, i really did not know that we would be studying information technology and only learned of it when i was called for an interview and was face-to-face with three korean professors telling me about the program and asking me questions here and there……and when i was asked if i would be willing to study informatin technology considering my present degree, i honestly told them that i would think about it and they were pretty kind to accept my answer……then after three days i received a call and was told to report because i was chosen to be a part of the program, well i guess they took my thinking about the program answer a yes!…….

and so i went there again and learned of the full context of the program……throughout the whole discussion i was already beginning to like the program and by the time the discussion ended 3 hours later, i was already 70% up for it……it was really good, the program, we are given free accomodation in what they call the English Village, a whole house to 22 of us, 2 persons each room (air-conditioned)….house is fully furnished, own cook to prepare food for us, free laptops (the village itself is wi-fi zone)………in the morning, professors would come to the house to teach the course (we are told that they cannot have us going to classes in the college itself because the college’s medium of teaching is in Hangeul and so they had to hire two or three teachers who speak english specifically just for us), and then in the afternoon we work, simple as that………

but after endless hours of deliberating about it, i finally came up with my own decision and three days after the meeting i called the representative and had to tell him that i am declining the scholarship offer…….he asked for my reason and i gave it to him…..he was kind enough to accept my decision…..

and now the only thing i could say is, almost, south korea, almost…….almost Cho Seung-Woo, almost…….